Today was the first day of Summer vacation. Today was rough. I feel so out of whack without the school schedule. I tried to do housework today and catch up on things but every time I would clean something, it would be a mess in 5 seconds after I walked away. Having all 3 kids home 24/7 is crazy. I don't know how I did it for so long before school. It was a blur and each day was a struggle.
I'll admit, I can't stand a messy house. I like the beds made, no toys in the family room, no rough housing in the family room and once you play with something and you're done with it, it needs to be put away. I know it's silly. I just feel so much anxiety when it's all out of place. Even if the mess is contained in the boys' room, I don't like knowing it's messy in there. It drives me nuts. So, you can imagine my anxiety and frustration today when everything was a mess and it felt like that all day.
It's doable with just Asher around. But all 3 is crazy. I guess you could say today was not a day when I was thinking about having another. No sir. But then I have days where I think about it and would like another. We'll see. I really am so indifferent about it. I go back and forth constantly. I'm hoping this summer will be enjoyable and I won't go too stir crazy. I don't like it when I can't get my things I need to done. I need to work on that. It's about making memories and enjoying ourselves. Not if I made sure they didn't touch their nicely made beds. At least I can say, I survived day 1!
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