Nesting

I'm officially 2 months. Well, 2 months and a few days. I few things have happened I'd like to document.

One: we had our first doctors appt! Fred was able to come along and we briefly heard a heartbeat and got a quick ultrasound done. My most favorite thing is hearing that heartbeat for the first time. It kind of put me in a little of a shock which is weird because I knew there was a baby in my stomach but to hear it, it just makes me so real because it is. Our little one looks like a little blob on the ultrasound but I don't even care. It's mine and I love it.

Two: I took Caleb to the doctors since he had an ear infection and needed a bump checked out. I asked the pediatrician briefly about something related to baby and said I was 2 months along. I got this reaction I didn't expect. It was a look of, "Wow, really?" I was so taken back and thought it was so incredibly rude of her. She has the right to her own opinion but to react that way? Keep your thoughts to yourself! What's it to you if I have 4 children? While discussing what happened with Fred he reminded me that we are now in a elite group. Many will look down on us, disagree with how many kids we have, think we have to many etc etc but the world has limits when it comes to children and most think 2 is quite enough. 3 is borderline crazy. 4 is you are officially crazy and going to make yourself poor. After that day I had this huge mama bear attitude and felt a deep desire to keep this hidden as long as possible so I don't have to hear people's opinions and negativity. And I know I'll only get it even more if I have another boy. I'm interested in how people will react because I know the people who truly love us will be happy for us. I'll be able to tell who really are our friends. It makes me so defensive just thinking about it all. 

Three: I have officially begun nesting. Today we moved the computer desk into the family room, I cleared out the baby changing dresser and reorganized Asher's things and now the dresser is ready for baby. There is a space that the crib will go, I went through baby clothes and got rid of old things and Asher's room is ready for baby to share. The keyboard got put into our room for the boys to start practicing and Fred and I rearranged the family room. After we find out the gender I will go through clothes and be able to start filling up the dresser and will start buying diapers. I feel so much better knowing there is a place for baby and everything is moved around to make room. I can't wait!