Woah.

March 21st. The day I found out we will be having Baby #4. We knew eventually it would happen because we were trying to have a baby but the reality that a baby was now on its way was very overwhelming. 

March 21st, the day I was suppose to start my period. I am pretty regular so when it didn't come I was kinda starting to feel like I was. My breasts were REALLY tender and sore, I had been up peeing in the night for the past week (which I thought was a bladder infection... It wasn't.) and I didn't feel super crampy which I normally do before I start my period. I told Fred the night before on our date that I thought I might be and he just brushed it off saying, "Just wait awhile."

I couldn't wait. In between all the craziness of the next day, I took Ethan into Ralph's to buy a $10 pregnancy test. He was preoccupied with other things to ask what I was buying and was focusing on the movie we'd rent for family movie night. Fred was out at Costco with Asher and Caleb. Once we got home my heart was pounding. This was it. This is a big deal. One because it's another human being coming to our family and two because I feel in my heart that this is it for us. This is it! We will be done once a fourth comes. 

I peed. I waited. I couldn't look. I said a prayer that my heart would be calm and that I will feel peace in my heart. We had wanted this. But the fact it actually may be happening is a little overwhelming and scary.  

My heart became calm and I looked. And there it was. (+ -)...translation: you ARE pregnant. Wow. I cried. I cried because I immediately was so grateful it only took us 2 months of trying, cried because I was so overwhelmed, cried because this is huge, cried because I was happy, scared, nervous, excited all in one. 

Fred came home and after about 10 minutes while the kids were running around our legs, I whispered in his ear, "I have something to tell you... I'm pregnant." He immediately said, "No, you're not. 'Say One Of Ours!'" Which means it's not a lie. You can't lie to 'One of Ours.' So, of course I said, "One Of Ours" and he said, "What?! How do you know?!" 

I proceeded to tell him I bought a test and it was positive, then showed him. He hugged me, said 'I love you!' and we just sat and let it all kinda sink in while trying to shoo the boys out of our room to give us some privacy.

 We decided to wait until we know the gender to tell people but of course we would tell the kids before everyone else. We'd like to do a little gender reveal with the boys with balloons or something then think of a fun way to tell everyone else. I just hope I can hide my growing stomach until then.

Fred kept saying, "That's how you chose to tell me?!" But I couldn't wait. I just had to tell him asap. I couldn't wait to do anything crazy and exciting. 

So there you have it. We have a big secret and only we know. It's exciting. We know the Lord will send us exactly what our family needs, even it that's another boy. 

Baby #4 is due November 27th but I will deliver one week before that. I feel so blessed. And tired. And for documentation sake, I currently weigh 127 lbs and in size 4-8 depending on the brand. 

Let the growing begin!