34 Weeks

This week I am 34 weeks. Time has seemed to slow way down for me. Most of this pregnancy has been fast and pretty easy. However, now that I'm getting bigger and more uncomfortable the days drag on slowly. I have now gained 27 lbs which I am very unhappy about because I still have a whole month left. I just hope I can lose it in a reasonable amount of time and feel comfortable with myself once she's out.

She seems to move the most in the evenings. They are hard, uncomfortable movements too. I get hip and leg pain if I do too much so I have slowed down a lot. I am also back to being tired all the time. Not even from doing anything. My body is just tired all the time. My stomach feels so tight and the only position thats really comfortable for me is laying down. Sitting up in chairs is extremely unpleasant. 

I have been having issues with panic/anxiety attacks lately to the point where they scare me, making me feel like I need to go to the hospital. I have since tried meditation and it has helped me a lot. I also was suffering from being angry all the time. I still will be for no reason at all but the meditation helps me to release that anger. I've been pretty consistent with crying episodes too I'm guessing from the hormone overload but I'm hoping the mediation will help to get that under control as well. I've realized I've been putting so much expectation on myself and giving constantly that my receiving end was at an all time low so I'm hoping to balance that out.

We have talked about a few names here and there but nothing else works for me except Macie Amelia. All the boys say we should name her that but I think it's because thats the only name I keep talking about. I'd like to have a few names going into surgery so I have options but Fred and I have really not had the time to focus and really talk about it all. Life is just so busy and he's been very busy with work. He's currently out of town and when he is home, there isn't much time between eating dinner and him passing out from exhaustion. But I'm not worried. The perfect name will come to us.