Goodbye 2014

This is my last post for the year 2014. As I look back, I feel as though the year just slipped by me. I didn't set any goals for myself and the little ones I did, I broke and forgot about. It was a year of whatever. That sounds dumb but I don't know how else to describe it. We did fun things and Fred and I grew as a couple but there wasn't anything substantial that happened. 

I have hopes that this New Year will be one of intense planning and focusing on certain areas I want to achieve for myself and as a family. I have TONS of personal things I need to work on but one thing for sure I need to work on is thinking more positively. I am such a negative person and I don't mean to be. It honestly is just hard for me to think and focus on the positive. I can be so pessimistic and can be easily depressed if I choose to and I'm tired of living this way. I tried to be more positive in 2014 but old habits die hard. 

I also need to accept and love my role as a stay at home mom. No, I don't make any money and no I didn't finish college but that. is. ok. I need to keep reminding myself that success isn't measured by how much someone makes or how smart someone is. I lose sight of this a lot of the time and tend to feel worthless and what I do doesn't matter. That I'm JUST a stay at home mom. But the reality is, I am a stay at home mom. That is what I do. I don't get to stay in expensive hotels and get to travel and go out to lunch all the time like some people do but that's because that isn't my job or my life. That doesn't mean my job isn't as important or needed. What I do isn't glamorous but it is important and needed and I am my kids whole world. And that is enough. 

Even if I make simple changes in this New Year, it will be growth and I need to celebrate the smallest achievements. But when we don't we can easily get discouraged which will lead to our failure. For 2015, I'm hoping the small changes I make will help me to grow, learn and be a happier person. BTW- It'll also be my last year in my twenties. HOW DID THAT HAPPEN?!

Here's to a New Year that is full of possibilities!