Mother's Day wasn't a great day for me. It started with cards from the kids. Ethan's card said, "My mom needs naps and alone time to survive." Asher said, while I opened his gift, "I didn't even do any of that you know. My teacher did." He also said, "I mean I love you but I don't really like you." And Caleb's card was a fill in the blank. He said, "My mom doesn't like... to play with me."
Caleb's card broke me. I immediately was hurt and sad. Nothing after seemed to really help to make me feel better. Once they all left to let me finish my breakfast I started to cry. Caleb came in, after Fred told him to, to apologize. He said he was sorry he wrote that but I knew his words were only copying what Fred told him to say. It didn't seem sincere. The rest of the day I just felt like a huge failure. While telling my mom she said, "Well, those types of cards are kinda like report cards on how you're doing as a parent." So... I guess that means I'm failing? Not exactly the kind of thing that I wanted to hear. Then when I got home from church, Asher broke the flower that I got from the Relief Society.
Fred gave me a gift certificate to Burke Williams which I'm very excited about using but even that couldn't shake away the sad feelings I was having.
Being a mom is hard and I know there are a million things I could be doing better but of all days to have your kids say those kinds of things to you just makes you feel even worse. It was such a crappy day and left me feeling like a complete failure.
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