3 Month Progress Pictures

It's now been 3 months since I've changed my eating habits, my lifestyle and started going to the gym. I started at 150lbs (the heaviest I have ever been while not being pregnant). I am SO close to my goal of 130lbs, which is my pre-pregnancy weight and normal weight. After having each of the boys, I had no problem losing getting back down to my normal weight. In between having Asher and Macie, I was going to the gym and really worked hard. I got down to 119lbs which is the smallest I've ever been. But I quickly learned that that isn't my normal for my body and it was really hard to maintain that weight. Then fast forward a little. I got pregnant with Macie. I gained about 35lbs with her which was a little high for me but didn't think much of it. Eventually I'd lose it all like I always did!

After Macie was born, I didn't lose it. I lost all of it but 10lbs and I found it very hard to lose that. So, I basically then ballooned up because I was depressed about the fact that I wasn't losing like I normally did. I pretty much just ate my feelings. Then I made myself believe that I didn't care and this was just going to be my life now since I'm older and have now had 4 kids. I had no confidence and felt gross. I can't believe I lived like that for the past 2 years, Quite honestly, it's embarrassing. I know it's because I kept making excuses and was constantly trying to justify my choices. I complain constantly but did nothing.

I will never be that person again, EVER. Physically I've changed a lot over the past 3 months. I have gone from a size 12 to a size 8/6. I have 4 lbs to go until I hit the 20 lb weight loss. But I have also changed a lot mentally, emotionally and spiritually. For the first time in a long time, I feel a real sense of self, happiness and freedom. I'm finally in a place where I feel like I have the time to focus on me. I'm done having kids. My body will now be forever mine again. That is really refreshing to know. I'm excited and happy to be in the next phase of life. I am figuring out who I am again as a person. Not as a wife or mom but just as Kirsten.

As much as I love my husband and kids and the sacrifices I made with my body was very much worth it, I'm ready to focus on me again and find myself while still being a wife and mom. I have time for myself every morning. I work out, sweat and feel good. I shower, do my hair, put on makeup and get ready everyday. My house is cleaner and more organized. I feel happier. I feel in control. I feel less stressed.

I am so thankful for the message Dr. Laura gave and that I was listening. I am thankful to my Heavenly Father for giving me that enlightenment to want to change my life. I'm thankful I've been able to commit and I'm seeing results. I'm thankful for the promise that if you do what He says, He will bless you in ways you don't realize. I am now off of all depression medication and I feel like I'm feeling real happiness with myself for the first time in a very long time. He has blessed me with a healthier mind because I am doing what He asks. I'm eating better. I'm taking care of my body and trying to be a better mom.

I want to be able to do so many things when I'm old and my kids are having their kids. I want to be able to keep up with them in every way. I really think I will continue to be blessed by Heavenly Father to do just that because I am working hard. I can't wait to hit that 130 mark...something I thought wouldn't happen again.